I just don’t do it anymore

It is not that I quit
I just don’t do it anymore
I never had that one last bite
Or consciously walked out that door
I’ve heard people say I quit,
But really I just don’t do it anymore

Some are saying it is healthier
I am not so sure,
Nothing is dulling my mind
And it is shaking me to the core

The memories that fill my mind
Although sweet and tender
Are all I have for company
And that is some things I’d rather not remember

It is not that I quit
I just don’t do it anymore
I never had that one last bite
Or consciously walked out that door
People seem to think I quit,
But I just don’t do it anymore

My mind goes back to a simpler time,
But those days will not return
Even if you stay imprinted on my mind
Those bridges can’t be un-burnt

Maybe I need a new hobby,
Just something to distract my mind
Or the old familiar bad habit
Maybe it will return to me in time.

It is not that I quit
I just don’t do it anymore
I never had that one last bite
Or consciously walked out that door
People seem to think I quit,
But I just don’t do it anymore

3 thoughts on “I just don’t do it anymore

  1. That reminds me of Keith Waterhouse, UK author and columnist, who always said he had’t given up smoking but he hadn’t had a cigarette for (can’t recall how many) years.

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    1. A lot of this post was linked to my smoking habit, but maybe drinking to excess and couple of others could be applicable,

      In the last two years, with the whole social distancing stuff going on, I found that I haven’t been in bars smoking areas, which I normally find more sociable than in the pubs themselves, after going three months without one, I just never really got the urge to have another, I wouldn’t say I have given up or won’t do it again, just I have no urge to currently.

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      1. My husband would envy you. Even now he slows down outside pubs and hospital entrances where people are smoking to get his passive nicotine fix.

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